Midnight Blues

Never thought that after everything has been said and done...
I'd still be thinking of you in this silence of night...
Time has flies with emptiness between us,
yet...your shadow and pieces of the memories still linger on me...
as if they're carved deeply...a bitter relish in my own heart...

Many times I tried to sweep you away with my pride...
to flush you with my logic,
but then...the more I tried...the more the memories became a meaningful part of me
Thus, tonight...it's going to be different...

Tonight,
No longer do I try to omit you and the memories from my life...
Tonight, 
I decided to think of you one last time...
to miss you one last time...
to cherish the lovely memories we had one last time
to remember all the things I treasure from you...
your originality...your smiles...your jealousies...your stories...everything that you shared with me...

You are a twister of love for me...
a very swift and strong wind that blew me away from things I thought I could never let go...
You woke up parts of me that has slept so long...that I thought would never be there again...
You brought back what I needed to feel alive again...
and I thank GOD that He made the day for us to ever know each other...

though our time was short...
but it was so strong as a twister should be....
I thank God and you for teaching me...that love is never a logic
Love is not measured by time....but by the quality you put inside the time you have with the person....
Love is not about pride...but how much actions, sacrifices, and words of love you are willing to give to the person,
when you realise that you are granted only with a very short time...a very very short time...

After tonight,
I might not be thinking of you much...or maybe even...I'll forget you someday...
But I'd never forget the lesson and warmth of love you've left in me...
I'm totally sober and come to the realisation that we'll both soon find our own ways...
Hoping to walk the aisle with the one and only for the rest of our lives...

Therefore, only tonight..this long night..I'm going to let you stay one last time in my heart...
Tomorrow is a new day, a new year...a new chance...a new beginning...
I'll put you inside a special box, wrap it neatly...seal it with no turning back...
and surrender this box to Him, the Lord of our lives...
He, our creator, is the only one I trust to keep this box...
He is the one who knows the very best for us....
I lay down everything on His feet...
Let only His will be done in our lives.

So then my dear, I finish my midnight blues...
This is my cry of love tonight...
but only for tonight...


Always, your love, tonight.
JA